I've been contemplating if I'm going to update my featured friends or not. I know it sounds so childish but removing a so called "friend" would be a symptom of my defeat. I battled my heart out for the whole world to see, I cried endless tears and shallow sobs just for him. My theme was Me against Everybody Else. They want me to stop, I say "Let's give it more". They want me to move forward, I say "Let's stay here for awhile". They want me to forget about everything, I say "Come on! I want to relinquish every bit of memory". They want me to cut all connections, I say "No way!". Lastly, They want me to Let Go, I say "Not yet, I can still try!".

I still don't have the guts to tell the behind-the-scenes story and maybe we should keep it that way. Away from the privy eyes of people who just would not understand. :)

Then one day, it felt like an ordinary day there were no sparks, fireworks or clicks. It just happened. I can't quite explain the feeling but I think it is finally subsiding. All the heartaches and tears were reduced to half. I still believe that it will work maybe not now, not yet. But anyway, Life is tough :))
and Yes, I love you :-*
You'll always be here and maybe after another one and a half years.
Everything would be okay again. So Thankyouverymuch :))


This time, I'm going to wait ♥
But for the meantime, I'm living my life just like before, Uhh. Even better!

I just need to have that "talk" to make things official.