Friday, January 30, 2009
, Friday, January 30, 2009
Mahal ko naman ang comsci, sana mahalin na din niya ako. Ngayon na. Please :(
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Shifting thoughts blurred my mind this week. Though, I don't have the heart to shift to another course anyway.. On the brighter side of my life: For two years and counting, My boyfriend (Uhh yes, ACADEMICS is his name) and I have been together on and off this past semesters. Though, we're on the rocks.. I still keep hanging on that maybe our relationship would be saved and smooth sailing would come ahead of us. Oh please.
But thank you for the weekend, I can kick ass and study hopefully for an exam on monday and prepare for oral exams on CMSC21 :D
I'm still at the beginning of my journey pero hirap na ako, panu pa kaya yung middle at yung end? Haay :P
Ang mukha ng ayaw magpogram at magaral. Jusko :P
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Ohh. HappyHappy fortysomething birthday Mi :) I love you always. :D
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
, Wednesday, January 28, 2009
"Anne never ever wear sleeveless dress, it show a portion of your body weight, haha, a friendly reminder" -romand
Thanks to that one person who opened up my eyes to reality. Haha. I'm hating you so much right now, kidding! :p (pag lang talaga ikaw, nagkaron ng taba at laman, you'll never hear the end of it! igigisa kita ng buhay friend! haha!)
Moving on, let me rant about something really superficial just this once. I am a poster kid with a title of "BRASO..can't you be any fatter?" Seriously, for a girl.. I doubt that others' arms can't be any bigger than mine. Exaggerating! I lost much weight when I was sick and depressed but my arms just seem to gain more and more weight. Why oh why? I was even able to trim down my waistline. (Hint: It's less than 27 na :p) YAY!
So that's when sleeveless shirts become my enemy. But I still love wearing them. HAHA. :) Buti na lang, I don't resemble popeye. That would be hilarious. :| Any tips to trim down my huge arms?will be gladly appreciated. Please and Thankyou! :D
Leaving superficial land, it doesn't matter if your thin or thick. We have different ideas for beauty. :) Right? Just remember one thing. You may have flaws, but how you present yourself is more important. It's not what others think but how you L-O-V-E yourself. TRUE! (ayyy, gumaganon talaga ako. :p Someday, my BRASO will be smaller! HAHAHA :3)
On a sadder note, two of my exams turned out to get failing marks. I MUST STUDY HARD. MORE MORE TIME TO DEVOTE TO STUDYING IS NEEDED. :) BABAWI AKO. My prof even commented on my paper:"I know you can do better than this. Give your best" Uhh yes, that made me close to tears because I know I can, I am just being lazy and carefree that's why I am not able to show my inner prowess!
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
, Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Just waiting for you to come around. (hint: I am still happy but not all the time)
It's been like a month or so since the comeback of this and that. (and the disappearance of the thing with *BLEEP*, good thing we're back to being friends) A lot of things are quite HAPPENING =)) (If you're someone close to me then you'll probably know!) But then, it isn't one straight path to heaven it is more of a roller coaster ride with double death loops plus a lot of twists and turns. I am not complaining, regretting or anything from the line of the first two words said. I AM JUST WAY NOT INTO THE ADJUSTING PHASE.
By all means, would someone bonked me in the head and wake me up? I need maturity talk and anti-needy girl campaign please. So there =)) Maybe just maybe things will settle but it's hard making time to do things that you wouldn't normally do before. It's plain hard to adjust and be the GIRL again. Because I'm far from being that.
Uhh, and Yes! I don't even know why I am feeling tension between that girl and I? There's nothing wrong with her but I feel the competition. It saddens me that I can't do anything about it. I AM SO FAR AWAY. :|
Also, I come as a total airhead that the deadly silence of our talks is deafening. I AM SMART. I WILL STUDY MY ASS OFF. YOU'LL SEE. Or maybe I'm just into words and not into action. Ugh.
For the whole wide world, I am sorry that I can't specifically give names and open up to you. This is as far as this thing goes for my private life. I may not share all the details, forgive me =)) I am still too overwhelmed that I can only share the minor bits and I know that some of you just don't care. So we're quits! :P
Uhh, yes! I started my own journal away from the piercing eyes of people. Or it is a scrapbook thing. Outlet :) for things, I couldn't say at the cyberworld. I must stop being dramatic and doing things.
HELLO TIME MANAGEMENT, I want to be with you again! SERIOUSLY!
You know that for the past few months I'm feeling down in the dumps. My world is currently rotating at the wrong direction. My academic life is in shambles and this is not over-acting. I often get the feeling that all I want to do is sleep until my classes are over but luckily, I don't succumbed to that thought. *shudders* Though, I stay at the apartment most of the time thinking. I still fight the feeling of laziness and procrastination one way or another. :)
I am bit depressed that he, of all people would be the one to discouraged me or I'm just taking it the wrong way. Maybe it is some sort of motivation. :| Uhh, Yes. Maybe it is. I WILL STUDY HARD and prove him wrong. Unleash my inner Computer Science geekiness.
On a happier note, I get to spend time with my friendly family last Sunday. A little bit of shopping therapy is all I need though that kind of burned a big hole in my wallet. Tuna for the rest of the week, I guess. :p (just for now, everything would be okay)
For a short time, I really spent the day with amusement. I sometimes regret that I have to stay in LB for 5days max and not spend weeknights with my family. Sometimes, I feel way out of place because of my absence in a week where are a lot of things are happening that are overwhelming. I felt that I should be CLOSER TO HOME.
But anyway, the brunch we shared and the day is enough to make me smile wholeheartedly. I miss you guys, I really do. Time flies by so quickly that I get lonely that I am not there to share family moments with you. :( Oh no, here we go again. Here comes the drama. So I'll cut this entry short. :)
Painting fun. Hey M, Let's do this together, it's fun seriously =))
Sunday, January 25, 2009
, Sunday, January 25, 2009
After one great fight with a certain someone. *PEACE NA TAYO! K?* Realization strucked me at my weakest.
TheGOOD - We're okay. We're trying to make things better and We sorted things out. Thankyouverymuch. - He loves me still. *SUPER GOOD* - I am so making up to you and I quote "The only thing that is permanent is change" - I am somehow getting up my feet and being independent once again. The effect that you inflicted me should be gone, I can stand at my own two feet and I don't have to depend everything to you. I must accept that your world doesn't revolve me around anymore. I AM INDEPENDENT. I WILL BABY =)) - Another certain someone got my back after all. The sudden change of heart is overwhelming but I really appreciate it. It is not too late, so thank you =)) Listening to my rants and raves and being nice, talking to me and stuff. I never thought we would come to this so I will not name names. This is too much =))
TheBAD - I cried a dozen times last night. No, It is not your fault that my heart aches when you said those things. It sort of ached in a good/bad way. So forgiven. - I slammed the phone to think I'm the one who called in the first place but I just don't want to say unnecessary things that will break your heart, So I did the next best thing and after hanging up. I immediately texted you and said sorry profusely but then you were already asleep. Bummer :| - I can't say things and how I feel when you are infront of me instead I can express myself through text and words that somehow you can't understand. I'm sorry. i will try to communicate my feelings better. - I always ask you to spend time with me and you always do. But now, I face rejection because you are too busy with school and practices. Sigh. I feel unproductive that I don't get to feel that way or I am just a lazy ass after all. - I am moody all the time. It's not even the time of the month yet, but I don't know why. Stressed out perhaps? Or things are getting to my nerves. - I always pick fights. I don't even want to, it is partly unintentional. I want to feel loved and I want to seek your attention. I am sorry. I know it is such a pathetic way.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
, Saturday, January 24, 2009
It's thirty minutes before the deadline and I'm halfway through sending my program when my computer died on me. :| Now, I'm here at the computer shop near our house savoring the loud sounds of Dota, random cursing of players, my brother's loud rants and the usual whatnots you hear in a computer shop.
And what fascinates me even more are the kids sitting beside me playing dota and they are like only six-eight years old? Wow. Talk about being a young gamer. :}
I miss playing online and lan games. I miss my boyish self. :) Believe me, I am sort of before.
Okay, one round of counterstrike and all the good stuff. Then, I'm off to study and kick my ass for two more exams. I promise. :D
PS: I just don't know why I can't stand to play Dota, I try to appreciate the game but then they just result in killing me aimlessly. Walang habag pag Dota na ang katapat :> or maybe I just fumble too much with all the keys to press and strategies to make. HAHA :]
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
, Tuesday, January 20, 2009
You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have:
1. one weapon. 2. one song blasting on the speakers. 3. one famous person to fight alongside you.
-- 1. A double edge sword would be nice + immortality. Haha. Ang daya lang eh. :p May hangover pa ako sa paglalaro ng GrandChase. :D Pero cool yun, Di ba? Di ba? :> Imagine mo naman kung naka-bow&arrow ako. Baka patay na ako wala pa rin akong tinatamaan na zombie :|
2. Disturbia ü HAHAHA. Feel ko lang cool siya. The choice of music. *shivers*
3. Clark Kent minus the Superman costume. WEE. Gwapong sidekick. Pwede. Hahaha. :))
-- HERMIT MODE :} So if you are wondering even for a teensy bit why I am not around campus that much. Why I seldom make tambay? Well, I am in a quest to hermithood. A lot of things are happening and I really need to catch up. Bond with you guys soon, k? :)
First off, CONGRATULATIONS TO THE RECENT UPCAT PASSERS. :D HELLO BATCH 2009 :) [though, I tell you nothing beats 2007 :> haha. bitter :p]
Now, I'm officially feeling old again. A few more years in college and I'm workbound. Hopefully. But then, is it really just a 'few' more years? I can't help but think that one wrong move and my academic career would add a few more semesters to my already delayed academic years.
Then I ask myself, WHY AM I IN UP?
I am back to square one with all the undecisiveness and lack of enthusiasm to study hard again. I am bothered that I get to feel this feeling more than once a week already. Why oh why? :<
But yes, even after all my rants and unnecessary complaints.. I am still thankful that I AM IN UP :) It is the place to be. {gumaganon? haha!}
KAILANGAN KO LANG TALAGA IAPPRECIATE ANG MGA BAGAY BAGAY. KONTING KASIPAGAN PA AT PAGSESERYOSO BOY!
Sabaw lang talaga. Supeeerrrr. Andamae kasing exams eh :| Ang dame kailangan ipasa. Ang dame kong hindi maintindihan at masundan. Jusko! Pressure! :| KASI NAMAN EH. :> --
Monday, January 19, 2009
, Monday, January 19, 2009
I never thought that one Christmas Break, days confined in a hospital and a week away from school could make EPIC changes again in my life and others. :)
-- This week and the week after that=BURNOUT!
The future of my academic life depends a lot on the events happening for the next two weeks. So I ask you to pray for my well being and that my 'freshman' self would emerge and help me conquer this inevitable battle of exams.
ACADS MODE ALL OVER. :| FOCUS. FOCUS. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE STUDYING RIGHT? :(
Saturday, January 17, 2009
, Saturday, January 17, 2009
It has been awhile since I watched any decent anime. :| So, yesterday night I decided to watch Lovely Complex again to appease my boredom and because I don't want to start studying yet. Boy, I miss this :) All the "kilig moments" and "away-bati" scenes.
Now I am so hung over by the series that I started downloading the ost to drown myself with all the madness of fandom it brings. :> Contemplating if I will watch the live action movie version to kill time... Hmmmm...
BUT THEN I MUST STUDY. LOADS OF EXAMS NEXT WEEK AND THE WEEK AFTER THAT.
I DIE. :<
P.S. So would anyone recommend any anime similar to this? :) Please and Thankyou :D
Thursday, January 15, 2009
, Thursday, January 15, 2009
Girl: I love you. Grover: I love you too...But what is love? Girl: what? Grover: Wha-what is love? Girl: Uhm, love is something to do with hugs and kisses and a warm feeling inside. Grover: Yeaaahhhh! Boy love sounds great. Girl: Hmmm..
Yun pala yun eh. :D Haha. Ang cute lang talaga :) Yikeeeeee. Back to classes. :)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
, Wednesday, January 14, 2009
After one week of extended break. I am back to school :) Imagine that I have to catch up on a week's worth of academic duties, secure excuse slip from the infirmary-college sec, tolerate my professor's out of this world moodswings, study for upcoming exams, racked my brains to understand the previous lesson which I am clueless about and be a good old student yet again. :)
I AM GOOD AS DEAD. Stressful :|
Kelan ba kasi ang susunod na bakasyon? Naiinip na ako. :|
On the lighter side, maybe things are getting better between us or not. Still in the midst of confusion baby :)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
, Sunday, January 11, 2009
First Impressions lasts and somehow, I felt that I should be more of what meets the eye type of girl. I just want to make a good impression and somehow, BE THE GIRL :D If you know what I mean. :|
So there I go, searching out the potential "threats" in my land of love and whatnots. A few click here and there, and now I have all the needed information to back me up :) I thought I needed to get a feel of the competition and be on my toes. Then this got me thinking, I am "the girl" after all. It doesn't matter if I make a good first impression to his friends. If they see me as beautiful and not plain. If they think I am smart enough or not. I don't need to please anybody. It doesn't matter what they think at all. This is me. This is real. As a song goes.. Hahaha..
Because the moment he held my hand and reassured everything. All those doubts disappeared and everything went awesome. :>
Thursday, January 1, 2009
, Thursday, January 01, 2009
Wow! It's 2009! :D I used to believe in a superstition that whatever you do at the start of the year will be happening all through out the year. Does it mean I will be sick all year round? Acckkkkk! I hope not. :| I can't stand the feeling of being and sick and doing nothing (the doing nothing part, that I can tolerate! Hehe!) Though, I am feeling much better now. :)
This might not be a bad first day of January after all. :>
On the other hand, January 1st is a not so friendly reminder that in four-five days I will be going back to school. I am feeling the chill vibe pa naman :p Also, Christmas Break got me thinking that I have a lot of time in my hands. Yet my academic workload is still piled up into mounds of unaccomplished stuff. :| (PATAY AKO!)
I chose to watch series online and go malling than catch up on school stuff. :D *EVIL GRIN*
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Another round of vanity and photography.. Cheers! ü
PEACE yo :)
Anne, more of a witch :p
Sisterly love or so :D
Firecrackin' at Midnight.
oOo
“They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. What they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.” Cheers to the cheesiness && to my revived lovelife. May all things work out. *winkwink*
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1. I am eighteen 2. Love is sweeter the second time around 3. I heart corny jokes. 4. Curly hair since birth 5. Loves apple green, orange and blue. 6. Sings off key always. 7. Computer Science is my life, don't ask me why. 8. I doodle stars a lot. 9. All I need is love 10. Friendly friends I need.
