Saturday, June 21, 2008
, Saturday, June 21, 2008
I felt like crying again. I'm been doing that for the past few days. I think I broke something, inside of me. I just don't know which part yet. I'm guessing it's my heart but that can't be possible since I'm still breathing and living or maybe I'm dead already but i just haven't realized it yet. but I'm blogging, so dead people can blog too? that was weird. I'm getting there. I'll know what's wrong with me, sooner or later.
I went to class with my eyes all sore and puffy. Been giving a lame excuse that I'm depressed.. but it's not just depression there are a lot of underlying factors that is been affecting me lately. :s Haaaayyy.
I remember once in high school, I went to see my teacher [ my eyes are all sore & puffy, since i'm crying the night before. ]
Teacher: Oh, bakit ganyan mata mo? Brineak ka ng boyfriend mo?
Ako: wala ho akong boyfriend, nawala kasi celphone ko. :(
Teacher: Aaaahh.
Maaaaan, I don't even have a lovelife to begin with. Hehehe. Di baa? :P
Okayokay. I know what. I'm turning to a bad person. I'm being too judgmental and negative all the time. :S I don't want this. But sometimes, it is just so frustrating and tiresome to be all so good. Did I just type that out? Noooo, I'm mutating to a bad person already. I'm going to be a snob, maldita, suplado, laitera kind of person.
or NOT. or maybe it's just the moodswings again. They're killing me. :(
To my 'rents:
I don't need to explain myself anymore. You already made a choice on who is right. So why bother? I still love you guys. and if you only know how much I'm regretting all the words I said and how I wish I could take it back. :( :( :( this are just rough times, and i'm just growing out of my comfort zone. I'm still a teenager with all the drama. Trying to act mature but failing. A lot of things are happening. and I'm sorry. :(
I want to be good. I want to be better. I want to be best!Ü
