Your very own damsel in distress.

Monday, June 9, 2008 , Monday, June 09, 2008

you read it right! is there even such a thing? I know, I know i'm such a worrywart.. worrying about things I shouldn't even be worrying about. But I can't help it. There are times when I feel that the world is against me and nothing seems to go right. I wanted to just give up and crawl into my bed until it's okay to come out. Other times, I want time to stop because I'm having a blast. That everything just fall into the right places and for once, I can't wipe the goofy grin off my face. I wish more of this kind of situation. Please. :P There are also times, I feel completely useless. There are so much I could do for myself, for the world and for you. But then again, I didn't do anything. It seems that all my efforts are not enough and I'm just a complete LOSER! with the capital "L".

I know I shouldn't be too negative. On the contrary, I'm fairly optimistic. But the exception, I'm optimistic to others and OTHERS ONLY. (Since, I know.. I'm already a hopeless case.) I can try cheering you up even if you're not in the mood to and will only end up being more upset because I can't stop fussing over you. I can pat your back and let you cry on my shoulder if you and your loviedovie just went to a tough breakup and still say that: "It's o

kay, he deserves a second chance and everything would be alright" Even if, your former loviedovie has someone else already. :| *Cringe!

Ohyeah, I did become optimistic for myself about once or twice. That's when i'm failing my Math17 class and my grades are down into the dumps and my Math17 instructor is already hinting us (us: means those who has no chance in passing) to drop out! Man, was I horrified. DROP OUT! wtf, I'm just a new freshman back then. But Noooo, I'm feeling pretty optimistic right then and there..So I continued taking the Math17 Classes and studying for the last few exams, taking the finals and all. You know what? I failed. I freakin failed that class even with my optimism and hard work. Hahaha. and now my Acads life became doomed. *Evil Math17, I curse youuu!*

Come to think of it, I just want to be good. very very good at something. For example: ACADS. Later on, I realized I'm being to hard on myself. I mean, we should lay back and relax a little. A few absents, here and there wouldn't hurt as long as you know how to catch up. Being "Bibo Kid" and answering, reciting and raising your hand all the time is getting boring. Give chance to others naman. Hehe. Some of my upperclass friends, they don't even care if they don't get UNO as long as they pass. They're happy. On the otherhand, if we aim for UNO at the very start then if we don't get UNO that's okay. Atleast you tried, [ I'm getting so malabo at explaining. Forgive me now! Just try to catch up.Ü ]

It all boils down to BALANCE: You know when to do this and not to do that. We have our own share of ups and downs. This things shapes us into something better and more experienced. But then again, you'll never go wrong with "Steady lang.ü".

Learn to indulge. I'm not a spoiled brat at all. I don't get everything I want. We're not rich. We're just average. My parents are even complaining that I'm such a "kontra girl" (because whenever we are out and they're going to buy something.. I always quip that "wag na yan. hindi naman kelangan niyan." "Bibili ka niyan, para saan?" "Ang mahal mahal naman niyan eh." and the like.) and whenever my 'rents buy me something expensive. I felt guilty, that I'm not deserving and thinks of a way to repay them or when I do indulge on something for myself. I felt guilty too, that the money I spent could be used for something better. Lahat na prinoblema ko. Hehehe.

if only money grow on trees, but yeah.. even trees are diminishing. I love too much. is that too much? Okay. malabooo. I'm such a "please everybody" type of person. which is wrong! Di ba?

Okay. This blog is getting longer and longer by the minute. So I have to stop. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST!Ü and then, FORGIVE YOURSELF FOR A FEW DOWNFALLS, STAND UP AND CONQUER! :D

Okay. whatever. Thankyou ulit sa lahat!Ü
Don't contain yourself in a plastic container. Explore the world. woohooo.Ü
PAAAARTTTTYYY TAYYOOOO! :P

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